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Totul e energie .. dar conteaza asta?

Sunt un prost. Niciodata nu am inteles fizica/mecanica/teoria cuantica, niciodata! Dar sa spunem ca e reala si totul e energie si aici. Perfect!

Problema este ca ma simt idiot cand deja am avut a treia discutie in 3 zile cu persoane total diferite si toti imi spun de asta ca si un adevar absolut: “totul e energie si noi o putem manipula dupa bunul plac”.
Sa zicem ca e asa .. dar .. ramane intrebarea mea de idiot .. why the fuck you aren’t changing everything, at least inside you? si .. sare si partea de programator si gandeste tamp .. sa zicem ca au dreptate si chiar asa si e (nu, nu cred ca Pamantul e plat! :)) ) .. partea aceea la nivel atat de mic .. are nevoie de functii lowest-level extreme .. sigur sunt accesibile? Vreau sa vad un exemplu concret. Un om ce se uita la mine si face sa-mi scada barba (daca scriam “sa-mi creasca” .. avea dreptate .. imi creste continuu la nivelul ala microscopic :)) ).

Make me understand if you know more. Pretty please!

Prieteni/Amici/Viitorul trecutului prezent

Imi cer scuze voua pentru raul facut fiecarui in parte. Stiu ca pentru unii au trecut “secole” dar .. perceptia mea nu e la fel, timpul sta si uneori mai merge si in spate si in fata 🙂

Iertati-ma nu pentru mine ci pentru voi! Dati un semn si oricand va fi bine venit si cu raspunsuri la orice intrebare imi veti pune si ii stiu raspunsul.

Acum am realizat ca au trecut cei 30 de ani …. nu ca si punct initial in timp 0 ci 3. 30 + 3 = 33 …

Netzach

Ce inseamna acest cuvant si care este legatura lui cu El?

Netzach este sefirotul 7 din copacul creatiunii. Se traduce prin “eternitate” si in contextul cabalistic se refera la continuitate, victorie si rezistenta.
El comunica idea de suferinta indelungata, rezistenta pana la indeplinirea scopului si rabdare.

Muzica – Therion – Up to Netzach

Imi aminteste ca era singura melodie ce putea sa-l calmeze cand iesea din Ust Nasad, singura care ii aducea aminte sa intre in culcusul lui si sa-si astepte linistit randul. Fara aceasta melodie, gasita intamplator (de parca “intamplator” e un cuvant cu sens si logica), era o dorinta innebunitoare sa se intoarca ACASA. Niciodata nu am putut intelege ce e atat de special la aceasta melodie.

Inca imi ridica parul pe maini …

PS: Ar trebui sa-mi reamintesc ce inseamna “Netzach”, poate are legatura…

Muzica – Charlie Puth – We Don’t Talk Anymore

 

Imi aminteste de un drum in Cersani, cu Adina .. melodia rula la radio si melodia e un link in acel moment, o ancora. Nu era vorba ca vorbim sau nu vorbim, just a memory trigger 🙂

Lyrics:
We don’t talk anymore, we don’t talk anymore
We don’t talk anymore, like we used to do
We don’t love anymore
What was all of it for?
Oh, we don’t talk anymore, like we used to do
I just heard you found the one you’ve been looking
You’ve been looking for
I wish I would have known that wasn’t me
‘Cause even after all this time I still wonder
Why I can’t move on
Just the way you did so easily
Don’t wanna know
What kind of dress you’re wearing tonight
If he’s holding onto you so tight
The way I did before
I overdosed
Should’ve known your love was a game
Now I can’t get you out of my brain
Oh, it’s such a shame
That we don’t talk anymore, we don’t talk anymore
We don’t talk anymore, like we used to do
We don’t love anymore
What was all of it for?
Oh, we don’t talk anymore, like we used to do
I just hope you’re lying next to somebody
Who knows how to love you like me
There must be a good reason that you’re gone
Every now and then I think you
Might want me to come show up at your door
But I’m just too afraid that I’ll be wrong
Don’t wanna know
If you’re looking into her eyes
If she’s holding onto you so tight the way I did before
I overdosed
Should’ve known your love was a game
Now I can’t get you out of my brain
Oh, it’s such a shame
That we don’t talk anymore (We don’t, we don’t)
We don’t talk anymore (We don’t, we don’t)
We don’t talk anymore, like we used to do
We don’t love anymore (We don’t, we don’t)
What was all of it for? (We don’t, we don’t)
Oh, we don’t talk anymore, like we used to do
Like we used to do
Don’t wanna know
What kind of dress you’re wearing tonight
If he’s giving it to you just right
The way I did before
I overdosed
Should’ve known your love was a game
Now I can’t get you out of my brain
Oh, it’s such a shame
That we don’t talk anymore (We don’t, we don’t)
We don’t talk anymore (We don’t, we don’t)
We don’t talk anymore, like we used to do
We don’t love anymore (We don’t, we don’t)
What was all of it for? (We don’t, we don’t)
Oh, we don’t talk anymore, like we used to do
We don’t talk anymore, oh, oh
(What kind of dress you’re wearing tonight)
(If he’s holding onto you so tight)
The way I did before
We don’t talk anymore, oh, woah
(Should’ve known your love was a game)
(Now I can’t get you out of my brain)
Ooh, it’s such a shame
That we don’t talk anymore

Siguranta si frica de a te gandi la ea

Am avut ca o trezire ieri, de cand sunt singur in mine .. e pustiu, dar in acelasi timp si o oportunitate de a experimenta mai multe, de a gandi mai liber. Dar … cu toate astea parca, uneori, “depresia” apare, depresia ca noi suntem carne si doar atat pentru unii din con-pamantenii nostrii. Ce vreau sa zic e ca siguranta fizica e doar o iluzie la care nu ne gandim si pe care o luam de buna dar realitatea ne bate la tot pasul :))
Nu trebuie sa fim crispati si sa ne fie frica de asta, trebuie doar sa o constientizam si acceptam in noi. Daca pentru plata facturii X ne pregatim sa punem Y lei deoparte, de ce nu planificam, macar superficial, si momentele in care integritatea noastra fizica (iar apoi, ca o cascada cea psihica/mentala/etc) este amenintata? Daca nu te gandesti la ceva nu inseamna ca nu exista. Nu?